=D Smile!

I usually have lunch at two o'clock now... it feels very strange. =D The restaurant was almost empty today; and we recieved five-star attention from the waitress. It'll be fun to be an important dessert chef somewhere, baking banana-strawberry cakes and whipping out tissue-thin crepes and tracing patterns of umbrellas with frosting. Yes, if I had the talent, I'd be a chef, or a baker! =D I'd walk around with that big white French hat; I'd be able to tell delicious raisins from good ones with just one sniff; I'd create delicacies and give them to a little red-haired boy who'd eat them and give me a thumbs-up sign! I'd.. I'd..... be a sugar connoiseur! I'd swim in sugar heh. =D

Funny how people change over a year... just one year. I don't think I'm that different from my childhood self, actually. I certainly hope I'm a better person, but I don't know about that... I sorta think I had a bigger heart in my middle school years... did I use to be more compassionate and sympathetic? Have I gotten a little harder? =( I remember I used to notice lonely people standing by theirselves, and I would talk to them. I felt sorry for more people; I prayed for more people. Oh, to retain my childish love for everything and everyone! But I think I understand why I hardened myself a little - the more I cared about others and felt pity, the more my own heart ached. It ached, it really did. I was moved to tears by the condition of some people. I saw them trapped in their hatred and misery; and what could I do about it? But I still want to care. I've decided. Even if it hurts, I'll care.

This year has certainly been my "fruits" year. I've been eating an average of two fruits a day! No wonder I'm so healthy!!!!!!! =) Strangely, I don't have that much appetite for candy anymore... gone are my childhood days of swallowing chocolate bars whole (exaggeration only). Bleh... I still lack appetite for vegetables! Artichokes..eww... celery...nah...ice-cream...YES! hahaha just kidding! mmmm But there's something very appealing about kicking off your sandals in a sunny park while licking the drops of melting ice-cream from your walffle cone. Blowing bubbles and watching them drift off into the sky. Watching sun-kissed children swinging and building castles in sand pits.

Jobs

The following entry lists my dream jobs from childhood to now :

cabbage seller (not sure if this was my brother or me)
teacher
marine biologist
author
humanitarian
cute stationary shop owner
doctor / genetic researcher
panda bear / Alaskan wolf conservationist and protector

When will I ever decide on the path to follow?

Pensive

As the days wind down, and the promise of a relaxing summer break approaches, I can't help but feel a little bit sad. I'll miss all my teachers so much... their mannerisms, smiles, jokes... I'll miss my classmates and the school in general. Yes, nerd that I am, I actually love the environment of any academic institute. It's strange to think that this tan-hued school holds so many memories for so many people.

Only one more day. =)

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star

Twinkle keeps pooping on me! Once on my shirt, twice on my jeans, and multiple times on my skin. =P But she's so cute that I can't help chirping back at her. I especially like it when she lets me scratch her neck. =)

Two more days of school.

Rose in Bloom

I'm posting right before school today! =) Waking up to a few minutes of quiet thought and reflection really does alter my outlook. I'm hoping to be a good girl today and to work on my faults (impatience, laziness, etc), but before I leave, here is a phrase that inspires me to try harder in life :

"...glowing with the tender happiness, high hopes, and earnest purposes that make life beautiful and sacred..."

- Rose in Bloom

=) Smile!

Exhausted

My cousin is hilarious.

I love his earnest lectures about social adequacy, acceptable fashions, and "cool" behavior. I love how he harps at my "fashion-challenged" socks, or boasts about his ability to read people. I love teasing him about Sailor Moon and Yu-Gi-Oh "Legendary Fisherman" cards! =)

Traipsing about past midnight yesterday was interesting, but something I wouldn't want to repeat for a long time.

I'm realllly tired.

Little Superhero Girl

I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world
Everybody wants a piece of me
And I just don't know where to turn
I've got work piled up to my head
All I want to do is jump into bed
And wash away my troubles with lemonade
Play hide and seek with the boy next door
Take a trip to Singapore and
Imagine how I'll make the world a better place
All I need is a good disguise
One where nobody can recognise
That I'm feeling so small

All I need is a secret weapon
I've gotta have faith
Zapping monsters into outer space
I'm gonna be a Superhero

Na-na-na-na-na-naNa-na-na-na-na-na-naNa-na-na-na-na-na-Yeah

- "Little Superhero Girl"

What a cute song!!! =) It's so bubbly, so cheery, so reminiscent of blue skies and smooth seashells and nodding yellow flowers. Yesterday night was certainly an experience - eating out late at a Japanese resteraunt and watching numerous individuals yelling "sake bomb" while gulping down small glasses of the alcohol. The disco lights and mist gave quite a unique ambiance too. =) I don't think I'm made for nighttime outings... Eeeks... my mom is clamoring for me to leave this computer.

Yesterday, dusk at the bay was beautiful, in a very silvery, star-kissed way.

=)

June Rain

I wonder why I dislike answering the phone so much...

Wait... I already know why. =P

I enjoyed today's unusual weather - rain during the second week of June! =) It brought back memories of gray, still December afternoons. And I love the sight of brooding gray clouds crowning the hilltops! Well, I'd rather sit here and chat on and on about the misty caress of raindrops against skin, or the way puddles make that cute plopping sound when your sneakers land in them, or the soothing rhythm of rain against the car window, but a math portfolio awaits completion, and so do other scraps of homework!

Summer, how I yearn for thee! Can I really survive a week more of this?

Wednesday Ramblings

"I am willing to do anything for you,
To be exiled toward the edge of the sky"

- "I Am Willing"

I'm sure every girl has thought of her prince charming at least once, has envisioned him with that perfect smile, that special gentle touch. Today, I read a story about two lovers who couldn't overcome the barriers between them, and it got me thinking - how many people out there will never get to spend their lives with that one special someone? There has to be at least a thousand crying girls this very moment - thinking silly thoughts that all girls do, planning out their weddings, envisioning a moonlit ride with a smiling someone, gazing at the pencil stub that their crush dropped and that they'll henceforth treasure forever. It strikes me as a waste of time, and yet... the heart doesn't listen to reason very well. I'm not looking forward to the day when I'll like someone enough to suffer through sleepless nights, or see his face in every picture, poem, and song. Still, I hope every girl eventually finds her prince charming!

Brrr... my hands are so cold right now! Let me put on my dove-colored gloves and scarf, plunk down into the snow, and roast chestnuts over a blazing fire. Then I'll tame a polar bear, count the stars, memorize the constellations, paint the rosy children skating to my left, and dream fifteen consecutive dreams about green meadows and white stallions and laughing brooks.

Tuesday Notes

"Dutiful and loving; ready to help; patient to bear and forbear; eager to excel; faithful to the smallest task, yet full of high ambitions; and better still; possessing the childlike piety that can trust and believe, wait and hope. Good and happy, - the two things we all long for and so few of us truly are. This he was, and this single fact was the best eulogy his pastor could pronounce over the beloved youth gone to a nobler manhood whose promise left so sweet a memory behind."

- Jack and Jill (the novel)

Monday Thoughts

Going to Grace's house, or having her come over, is always a scary experience... I should never, never, never, and I mean never, have let her discover my greatest weakness. But it's too late... Even when I scream "Mercy!!! Mercy! I'll do anything you want!", the torture continues! *Shudders* Maybe I should pick up some martial arts haha...

Um. So I have five pounds of cherries in me at the moment. =)

I decided that I want to be a "Bejeweled" champion, so watch out, Aidan! I call for a rematch! A rematch!!! =P And and and I'm going to defeat you in chess as well - I shall practise this summer hahah =) Chinese chess, though, because that's easier for me.

I have so many things to do... and so little motivation to do them. I need inspiration. Words cannot describe how tremendously I yearn for summer, for freedom... for time to read and think and re-evaluate my priorities. But for now, I am off to complete an English essay! =)

(The summer skies here are such a brilliant shade of blue...)

Dear God

Hahah I found this on someone else's blog -

Dear God,

So far today I am doing alright.

I have not gossiped, lost my temper, been greedy, grumpy, nasty, selfish or self-indulgent. I have not whined, complained, cursed, or eaten any chocolate. I have charged nothing on my credit card.

But I will be getting out of bed in a minute, and I think I will really need your help then.

Reminiscing (not really)

Good morning!!! It's Sunday morning, and I'm enjoying the last few hours of freedom until school tomorrow. =) I love breakfast-ing with my family... the same old routine of pouring out orange juice, reading the comics, and laughing over un-funny jokes with my mom and brother. School needs to be over very, very soon... then I'll be on MSN messenger a lot hehe. =) I love the emoticons there!

I've decided to have more "quiet time" with myself, just to shelve off portions of the day for thinking, reflecting, and reading devotionals. Too often, I dash off instead to waste time online or turn on the TV. =( And it's true...we really do become what we think about... I have to make sure to expose myself only to healthy novels and activities, to keep my eyes focused on sunny hills and blue skies and kind friends.

I keep thinking about a small town next to the sea, with a quaint bakery and people biking through cobbled streets with pouches swinging from their waists. And a child in a yellow shirt flying a kite. And a couple eating ice-cream next to a fountain. And elderly women in neat Sunday suits strolling through the streets with grocery baskets on their arms. And schookids laughing and punching each other lightly on the shoulder as they make their way to school. This is the type of place I would love to live at in the future...cozy, small, but full of sleepy dreams and unknown love stories. There has to be cherry trees planted on the boulevards, and spacious parks to stroll in, and lanterns hanging on trees to give nightime a mystical, delightful ambiance. My dream town... where can I find it? =)

Hmm and my dream house... not too big, not too small... white on the outside, with a white picket fence framing a neat green lawn... pastel curtains... karge bay windows overlooking the sunset and the sea... sunny nooks to read books and eat banana split ice-creams in... a small balcony facing the sea as well...and a garden out of a poem. Speaking of houses... yesterday, I ran downstairs to find my mom. It was dark and spooky, and I felt scared, so I ran all the way up again. haha =) yeah...

I have two big boxes of cherries in the fridge right now! =D I love summer fruits.... the tang of cherries, the ripe sweetness of plums, the tartness of strawberries, the juicy-ness of watermelons!!! =) School today was awesome in a sleepy kind of way... I haven't gotten anything of substance done in a long time, though. I still have to give my textbooks a farewell party and pat them for that one final time... I'll miss them!

I'm listening to summer-ish, cheerful songs right now and thinking about ice-cream.

And now, I'm going to visit Twinkle, though I was always think of him as Dawn.

Blue Sky

Ignore the last post haha. =) I just needed to purge myself of angry feelings, but I'm totally fine and cheerful today! =) =) =) Apart from a chemistry and math test, school was quite enjoyable. Today's blue sky was so blue that it made me smile!